emilyem says (8:19 PM):
Sheldon Louis Stetz.
You are honestly going to banish me because I didn't tell you what I considered to be minor details.
And you're the one who speaks of tolerance and love and not being a freaking hypocrite.
{insert name here} says (8:20 PM):
don't forget honesty, and helping people.
em says (8:22 PM):
Would I honestly have helped you at all had I told you that she was a little freaked about by your vegetable-ness? That she was getting sick of your rants on emo-ism when you've been freaking emo lately?
No.
You already knew that.
you're breaking me and bleeding me down to nothing. It's tearing me down. says (8:23 PM):
she doesn't trust me.
I just got off the phone with her, and she said she loves me all she possibly can, but you can't love someone you don't trust.
you're breaking me and bleeding me down to nothing. It's tearing me down. says (8:24 PM):
she told me herself that she won't open up to me and let me know anything important
em says (8:24 PM):
then maybe this is all for the best
you're breaking me and bleeding me down to nothing. It's tearing me down. says (8:25 PM):
not when both of us still wants the other
em says (8:26 PM):
so you love each other madly, you want to be with each other, and you don't trust each other
em says (8:26 PM):
such a healthy relationship.
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:26 PM):
yeah yeah fuck off
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:26 PM):
no disrespect or anything
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:26 PM):
but really
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:27 PM):
I've lived it for about a year now
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:27 PM):
I know
em says (8:27 PM):
what are you going to DO about it?
rants are useless without a plan behind them
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:28 PM):
I don't know. I want her back, but not like this.
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:28 PM):
she's gotta trust me first.
em says (8:28 PM):
Will she ever? Do you even trust her?
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:29 PM):
I did.
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:29 PM):
until she gave me reason not to
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:29 PM):
right now I don't, but right now I don't trust you either, so cut me some slack
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:30 PM):
she probab;y won't, which isnn't what I wanna hear, but let's be honest.
em says (8:31 PM):
Sheldon. You've not trusted me before. You've gotten hella mad at me before. And guess what. We're still close.
Will that happen with Christine?
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:32 PM):
she said she had to get off the phone so Justin wouldn't be upset.
doesn't give a shit about the boyfriend, but cares for the guy she has to date so she can have the boyfriend
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:32 PM):
what's wrong with this picture
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:32 PM):
I odn't know if it'll happen with her.
Maybe. Maybe not.
but either way, it's gonna take time
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:33 PM):
when she can show me that she does care and that she's trusting and ready for a real relationship, then I'll consider it
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:33 PM):
by the way, you might wanna save this conversation to show her later, in case you feel like she might wanna read it
em says (8:34 PM):
if you want her to see it, you'll have to send it to her.
em says (8:34 PM):
I'm staying out of this one.
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:35 PM):
good call
em says (8:42 PM):
wow. fairly intense move. you delete me from your friends after one altercation.
em says (8:42 PM):
not gonna lie, I'm slightly suprised
also not gonna lie, I probably shouldn't be
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:43 PM):
she's gone too
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:43 PM):
Marcie as well
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:43 PM):
Megan and Katie have been gone a while
em says (8:45 PM):
You throw me out with them? As if I'm connected with them, as if I'm part of them? As if all I am to you is just one of your girlfriend's friends?
You cast me off as easily as you do them?
em says (8:45 PM):
I'm not sure if I'm horrified or just hurt.
em says (8:45 PM):
What am I, then?
If you drop your sister along with your girlfriend, was I ever your sister?
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:45 PM):
not with them, or as one of them
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:46 PM):
but really....that was some very interesting information I'd have liked to know a long time ago Emily
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:46 PM):
a LONG time ago
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:46 PM):
like, the second or third time she said it
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:47 PM):
which is more important: keeping a secret with someone, or telling the person that could fix the secret so it wouldn't have to be kept?
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:48 PM):
that's the reason you aren't on it anymore. I can't seem to trust you to tell me things I need to know
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:48 PM):
most times, yes, and I thank you desperately for those
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:48 PM):
but this most recent is huge Em
em says (8:49 PM):
You get angry at me for not keeping her secrets when I've faithfully kept yours.
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:51 PM):
you can tell her anything that you find important to keeping her and I on track. As bad as it is, you've kept her and I going, not us alone. We've had to rely on you, because she doesn't trust me enough to just tell me herself.
em says (8:53 PM):
You've used me, then. And you admit it. And now you're angry that I wasn't able to be used.
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:54 PM):
I guess you oculd put it like that, yeah....
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:55 PM):
but I don't wanna lose my sister over this
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (8:56 PM):
Emily....please try not to be too angry or upset with me.
I know I deserve it, but for the sake of the last 4 or 5 years, please try to forgive me
em says (9:00 PM):
you're the one essentially renouncing me for what I view as no reason whatsoever.
I'm not sure exactly how i'm the one being angry or upset here.
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (9:01 PM):
I odn't know either but there's so much flowing through my head that I can't understand anything really....
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (9:01 PM):
maybe I should go try to sleep or something
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (9:02 PM):
but I need to ask one more favor....can I do that?
em says (9:03 PM):
you can ask. I'm still your sister. You can always ask.
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (9:03 PM):
if she calls you or you call her tomorrow, could you ask her to call me?
there's a lot to sort through and talk about
em says (9:04 PM):
yeah. I'll ask her to call you
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (9:04 PM):
if I ever get my license, I'll take you anywhere you wanna go on the motorcycle
em says (9:05 PM):
you've already promised me that one.
You've gotta come up with something else
em says (9:05 PM):
but you can think on it
em says (9:05 PM):
go sleep
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (9:05 PM):
I'll try...
where do you go when you just don't know, and how do you relight a flame when it's coal? says (9:05 PM):
thanks Emily
