Something bothers me immensely:

“…stop confusing her.”

Why should she be confused? Wasn’t it just about a week or so ago when she had this startling revelation that she was “madly in love” with me? Doesn’t she always tell me that?

…then why would she be confused?

I can only narrow it down to two things:
1) She lied (which I don’t want to be true, but I still want to keep it an option, just in case)
2) She feels the same about someone else (and I got there first)

I don’t wanna freak out about this or anything, but those three little words shook the very foundations of myself. Those three little words, stop confusing her, make me question the other three simple words she says to me…she said them today. Maybe she does, but then again, if she does, why would there be a question? Why the confusion? Why do I have unanswered questions, especially about this? I can’t figure this out.

I'm willing to bet that this all has something to do with my questioning why she was with me and not someone else (idiot....I specicifally named him....why'd I do that, again?).  She's smart, and she thinks about a lot of stuff in good detail, and I guess I kind of set myself up for this one, but I can't help but feel like....I don't know.  I hope he misquoted, but then again what if he didn't?  Why on earth would she be confused?  There should be no confusion.   I realize that I might be slightly hypocritical in saying this, but come on.  I never.....did I?  I can't even keep a coherent thought anymore.  God this is just eating me away.  It's gonna drive me crazy until I just either give up or confront her about it (which I plan to do tomorrow, by the way).

Fuck, this is getting nowhere and I'm just lost.